This winter has been a tough one. Lots of snow, lots of wind, and lots of low temperatures adds up to lots of cancelled or delayed school days. While I love my children dearly, and they are wonderful people (as others have told me) having them home so much is holding me back.
For many weeks now, I have been working toward a more organized home. I have searched for ideas on Pinterest and Youtube; shopped for organizing bins and baskets; made Word files and lists; and analyzed our families needs and habits. Now I am ready to put it all in action. But I can’t. Or should I say, I haven’t been able to yet.
With the kids home so much, my ability and desire to work is totally disrupted. For example, I desperately wanted to…no NEEDED to…clean out and organize the cupboard beneath the bathroom sink. However, with five extra bladders at home, I haven’t been able to take the time to tie-up the bathroom long enough to do my organizing. Likewise, my many kitchen organizing ideas have been put on hold, too. Sure, I could ATTEMPT to do my projects but I don’t really need the extra “help” that would be there. These are things that I want to get done and be able to sing, “I did it my way!”
I understand the excitement and fun of a day off of school. The lazy day, spent lounging in sweat pants or jammies, watching TV, playing games…just taking a break from your regular responsibilities. I, too, like hearing the news of a snow day. Unfortunately, it brings the lazy out in me, too. Despite all of the plans I have and jobs I want to accomplish, I let it slide and snuggle under the blankets and stay in bed as long as possible, thankful I don’t have to get out in the snow and cold and taxi kids here and there. At the end of the day, I find I am kicking myself for wasting a day and blaming it on the kids being home from school. Not only do my projects lay dormant, but the regular housework piles up, too. I am torn between wanting them to get back to school or have another lazy snow day at home.
But the decision isn’t mine to make, and for that, I’m grateful. It’s a tough situation. On one hand, it would be nice to get the students back in classes and learning. On the other hand, no one wants to see a school bus slide off of the road due to treacherous driving conditions. Not all of the students are equipped with the proper attire to handle a wait at the bus stop or a walk to school in sub-zero temperatures. However, these are the same students that rely on the schools for their most nutritious, or possibly only, meal of the day. As a stay-at-home mom, I don’t have to rush around, finding daycare at the announcement of a school cancellation as other parents might have to. There are so many factors beyond the forecast that the school superintendent needs to consider when making the decision.
As I am writing this, I am feeling a bit ashamed of my whiny attitude. I am blessed to be in the position I am in. My children have a warm, safe home with someone to take care of them. Yes, my plans have been altered. Yes, my laziness is my own fault. I just need to remember to sit back and make the most of these days as the kids are growing quickly. Just as I reminisce about the Blizzard of ’78, one day my kids just might think back and say, “Hey, remember that really cold January in 2014? We stayed home from school a lot and made cookies almost every other day. And we would all jump into Mom and Dad’s bed for a morning Cuddlefest! Oh, those were the days!” And they probably won’t remember the loads of laundry and dirty dishes and piles of clutter.